Doesn't want to be happy.

I really don't know what I want from my biological mother.
Sometimes I think if it was better if she never came back for us.
So I can continue to hate her.

But now she dances back to my life I feel like I should embrace her existence.

All she kept saying is that she wants to be happy.
She took that away from us.
We're forever miserable.

She said my sister (including me) doesn't let go the past.
How can we when you tramatized us when we were young...apparently not young enough to not remember anything.
Our unhappiness is justified.
She should just let us be. Choose whether to be happy or not.
Its not up to her anymore.

I don't want to be happy, just content that i have a roof over my head, education, job and clothing and food. Thats it. I don't think I want to experience full happiness because I end up being disappointed in this life.

BOOYAH!