I Hate Mother's Day.

This is what I wrote to a fellow classmate, but I realize that I got my answer as I was trying to get an advice from her.
Hey [Insert Name],
I have a question. Just a personal dilemma sort of thing.
I hate Mother's Day. I'm sure you know why.
So every year it falls on the date where I unofficially see my biological mother. For all these years I never had any problem with that. Until recently my stepmom starts showing signs of jealously. So this week like every year I would say 'hey lets grab dinner this Saturday, okay'? This year she gave me, 'well its been like this for 10 years already, why wouldn't it be okay'. At that point I felt guilty. So I like e-mail my biological mother if its okay to spend Mother's Day a day earlier. I told her why and everything. After I send it I feel like I did it wrong. Like I should have done it next year instead. And now I feel guilty.

Like I don't know. I tell people I don't have a mom. My stemom gets jealous when my dad treats us a little better, like buying us clothing or offering things to my little sister and I. My biological mom, I feel like i'm intruding in her life. Like she want to be with us because she doesn't want us to hate her because of what she did. When I'm with my mom I feel like I just want to hug her.
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After I typed that part, I started to cry.
Now that I think about it, why do I have to cry over a simple situation
I just have to start to take turns in spending Mother's day with every year now. Its only fair to both. A simple plan and I couldn't think of it after I wrote that letter that I plan not to send. I always figure out things AFTER I cry. A create way to solve every personal problem.

Fuck me.