Dying...

Why do I tend to dream of dying. Or like the cause of my death. Or what I'm going to do if I know i'm dying (like I got some incurable cancer). I sometimes dream of the death of my love ones and I seriously cry myself to sleep...which adds up to one of those times when I had a breakdown and i just cry and cry. Because of everything thats goes around my daily life that are making me unhappy yet I cannot express it to the ones who are causing me this ache.
sigh...