Soften Up

What the fuck is her problem.
I like to telltale?
This is what happened:
My little sister was pouring herself a cup a ice tea so I got my cup and ask her to pour me one. She refused, puts down the container and I reacted like I always did. 'Whats your problem?' I didn't fight with her. I barely spoke to her. But of course dad who was standing behind us was like 'ping ping why you have to be like that'. She looks at us, like we're some predictable monkeys. Fuck her. I already knew she wasn't going to pour me a drink, but I was really hoping she would change my mind.

Why do you have to be such an asshole?
I am an asshole.
Go fuck yourself.
I have got no one to fuck.

I can't talk to her anymore. I can't tell her stuffs without feeling scared. Why did I tell her about Rui.

I want to die. Because I want to cause her some pain. A lot of pain. I want to die. Rui can find another girl. My parents will be supported by her and my little brother. When I'm gone everything will continue on. A few pains here but it'll go away.

Me talking crazy. Fuck me.

//Aneko//