Giving too much.

I wonder is it normal to feel like one needs to restrain herself from giving too much into a relationship. Because too much submission gives the other person too much dominance. At the end the submissive individuals are the ones who gets hurt the most.

So its been eight months, I feel like I do a lot for him. And I don't entirely see a immediate return of the amount of work I put in for him. I think its bad for my health to always compare the amount we put in, into the relationship.

I always feel like as long I did my part. If something does go wrong I know I am not at fault or at least I know I did the best I could. But is this way of thinking may be too deep? Because it almost seems like I don't give him enough room and space to let him naturally be good to me. I mean he is good to be, but I guess not to the level I expect from him. Or its just my maternal feminine side that can't help it but to do the things I do.

Being single is so easy. Being in a relationship is hard when you start to feel insecure and have low self-esteem for one's self.

//Aneko//