So I'm working on my math homework and I look at the time and its 2 in the morning. Granted I don't have class until 2pm. So why sleep so early. These couple of days I've been feeling all bubbly. The happy kind. How long will this one last? I don't want to give in too early which is why nothing is official yet. Its just so hard to explain. Being in Stony Brook and living in West, I feel like I'm in an apartment and that freedom feels so good. But once summer vacation hits I know life will go back to my cage, where I am obligated to do everything for my family. But this time I won't be too upset about it. Because I know I have him to talk to and he will make my day. But at the same time the guilt is still there. So I have to decide to end it or keep it. Which is why not a lot of people know, because its not establish. If I end it, there will be no third chance. And I will only be breaking my own heart this time. Who knows when I'll piece is back together and open the windows again. Life is all about chances I guess. Maybe after two month, the feeling will be gone and if he was to end it at least I won't fall too hard, because the strings are not attach yet. Since I've been with him, I want to look good, but at the same time I don't want to lose my identity. My outfit is what make me feel the way I am, confident, strong, and open-minded. Maybe if one year hits I might just dress up. Just once. But its still too early to think about. I need to first focus on my exams and then my love life can come forward.
FIGHTING!
/Aneko/
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